I was eating breakfast at 2:30 this afternoon, and something dawned on me that has me kind of excited right now.
I realized that after college I don't really have to do much of anything. Sure, I'll need to find a job of some sort within three or four months of graduating -- depending on how much money I have left after college, but I don't really have to do anything.
I realized that I could pack up all of my stuff after college and move wherever I want. Once I'm there I could look around for a job. I don't need to be highly paid. I don't need to fear being alone.
It's really fantastic realizing that the connections to certain ideas in my mind are actually quite britle. I need not hang on to notions of being successful, wealthy, or having certain things. I don't need to be afraid of the notion that I might be somewhere without my friends, because I've already gone through that and survived. I guess I could worry about having absolutely no money, but I think that at my age and with a college degree, I could probably find a job that will pay me enough for food, clothes, gas, and rent -- at least. That's all I really need anyway.
Well, now I am pretty happy, because instead of wondering about what kind of job I am going to get after college I think I'll wonder about what kind of place I could live in after college. I'm thinking that I could move to Colorado Springs, somewhere in Texas, stay in Florida, or go out to California. I could probably even move to a city where one of my family members lives -- a notion that seems completely new to me. I had always felt that a city that already has a brother or a sister in it was sort of "taken" and not to be used, but I could live in Fort Myers again, or in Palo Alto, and I bet it wouldn't be so terrible.
Man, life really doesn't need to be that difficult. I wonder why it so often is.